Where did I go?
I retreated. Away from the world, and all its pressures,
away from my friends, Facebook, phone, and even my family.
I spent time alone. I fasted. For those of you not familiar
with this, I didn’t eat, since Sunday night. A series of events drove me to
this point in my life. Let me go to the one that drove me with all the
push. I have what I believe to be
systemic candida. You can Google it. It
is not easily treated by doctors, and I have had this and some severe symptoms
of this for over 3 years for sure. Lately, I was getting to the point where I
didn’t know what else to do, and I have tried all kinds of things, and they
didn’t work properly. Maybe give me
relief for a week or two, and then they were back again. I wasn’t sure. I
looked up some info on it recently, around two weeks ago. The one lady said to
do a fast, a 30 day fast actually. Just
drink water, and your body will heal. Kill off the bacteria (yeast) in your
body. YA RIGHT! Go 30 days with only water, you have GOT to be kidding me!
LOL But the idea didn’t leave my mind. But then I
got to thinking, if that was something that I could do, then I would do a spiritual
fast, and get the physical fasting benefits. BUT I endeavoured to make this a
SPIRITUAL first fast. In order to do this, I needed to set a time/date, and
proceed from there. Well, all of you, my
wonderful friends, know how much I correspond by email, Facebook inboxes, Facebook
itself, text messages etc. I am never without my phone, and always checking my
messages etc. I am on top of that (prob
one of the only things I was on top of in my life, LOL) So in order to do this
effectively, I had to retreat from everything. AND as I write this, I am 5 days
into my fast. 5 days of not eating, 5 days of reading my bible, praying,
resting, and focusing purely on God, figuring out what He would want me to do
next. I spent time at the lake, at the
church, driving by myself, and in my bedroom.
I prayed, read my bible, read a bible based book on fasting, and some
amazing other things. I let the world
know I was going to be “GONE” so that I wouldn’t be bombarded with emails, as
for once I was thinking only of myself, and God. I didn’t want anyone to be upset that I didn’t
answer their emails or texts in a timely
manner. SO Mike, my amazing wonderful
special husband, took over assistant duties for me. Taking my phone where he went and I am so
grateful there were only a few things that he did have to deal with. What an
amazing GEM of a hubby I have, so seriously.
Whose husband would take care of the schooling for the entire week, take
care of my business that needed attention, take care of the house, the 14 year
old, and move the microwave into the garage so I didn’t have to smell what they
were eating. He even went as far as to
eat in the garage so that I wouldn’t be affected. He wanted me to succeed on
this fast more than I did I think. So if you would have asked me last week if I
thought God called me to fast, I would have said “Well kind of, it’s a way to
weaken my flesh so HIS spirit inside me would grow strong”. That’s about it. I
didn’t think of it like, God called me to do this fast for Him. He loves me so
much, that on Monday morning, He confirmed his will for me to fast for the
week. That’s another long story….and some pieces are special for only me. If
you want to know what God has done for me during this fast, talk to me &I will tell you what I
want others to know:)
So far, the MAJOR thing that has come out of this is that
this is my ESTER moment. I am in the kingdom for such a time as this. If you have never heard the story of Ester, again,
ask and ye shall receive.
I am seeking God’s face on many things, things that I
never thought of to begin with, but boy is He changing my life right now. I am
so happy to know Jesus on a more personal level. PS: my body is doing ok, I am really sore from
laying around, sitting around, just praying and reading and not doing anything
else, and my energy levels are LOW….BUT Isaiah 58 tells us that after you fast,
“VS 8: thine health shall spring forth speadily.” So, I am declaring it. I WILL
be better, after this fast!
Keep smiling.
Keep following.
More good news to come.
Praising God for His ULTIMATE goodness,
Maria
